Today I thought about what I would like my resolutions to be. One is the classic, get my ass to the gym haha. I think I say this every year and I've been consistent in making it not happen haha. We'll see how this year goes :p My other one is that I want to try and be less ambivalent about things, especially when it comes to music directing. I find that with many things, in group situations, I never want to make the final decision. I'll help to narrow it down to two or three things, but then just say I'm content with either one and let someone else choose. I think a lot of that stems from the idea that I want to make everyone happy and not be disagreeable. But I think in order to be successful at my job I need to stand up more for what I want and for what I want the decisions to be. Of course I always believe in being collaborative and listening to all sides, but it's time for me to step up and make the final call.
Most recently in my life I've met this amazing guy who I am totally head over heels for. We met online over a month ago, and since meeting we have talked pretty much every day. I have plans to visit him at his school this coming Thursday, and I cannot wait. I just really made a connection with him, and we are very similar people in many ways, which is so refreshing. What's also nice is that I'm pretty sure he feels the same way, and is just as excited to see me as I am to see him. I can really see this going somewhere, and it would be absolutely amazing if we could make something work. I feel like the timing just happened to work out perfectly, and as I always say I think things happen for a reason.
This is a scary time in my life because my life could go in so many different directions right now, so I'm never sure exactly what is going to happen. But I believe as long as I keep my end goals in sight and not lose track of who I am, everything should play out well in the end :) My inspirational message from the Universe for new years:
1. Give thanks that life is... just as it is (and that it's been... just as it's been). Because of it, you're now "READY."
2. Define what you want in terms of the end result. Don't worry about the hows, or even the course. KNOW that what you want is ALREADY yours in spirit, by divine LAW, just focus on the certainty of this ownership, understand it, claim it, and "it will be on earth, as it is in heaven (spirit)."
3. LET THE UNIVERSE show you the way via your impulses and instincts that appear as you take inspired action. Don't worry that your first steps seem silly or futile. And if you don't know what to do, do anything! Go! Get busy! Do not insist on intermediary successes, only upon the end result.
P.S. About four months after getting Kaleidoscope Heart I still find I listen to it every day and it inspires me more and more each time I listen to it.
